End of Day 1........

Earlier this afternoon, I went to the Dr. I have had a nasty summer cold since the weekend, I got checked out, but also I got weighed, 275, not quite the 280 that I thought that I was up to, but that means that I have gained 15 pounds since Christmas (and the start of the sitting at a desk full-time job)....

During the ride to and from the Dr's at every turn I was accosted with fast-food restaurants and also accosted with desires to stop and partake!

I had never realized how HUGE a part of my life fast food had become...... 

I remember thinking that I might save LOTS of money following this plan and learning to eat this way for life....

At the end of the first day I find myself wanting to sneak a tootsie roll.....but I haven't...

The big question now is, who is going to shop on a regular basis for the food and prepare it when we are all so busy!?

Stay tuned, more to come in the following days.............

Day 1...........

Though today is really not 'Day 1' of my being 'unpaused'...

it is just that today holds significance for me...over the weekend I have come to some really deep revelations about my life.

"What I have been doing is not going to get me to where I want to be."

This statement holds true in most every aspect of my life, physical, emotional, spiritual and intellectual.

#1. The job I do is not for me. Being given a formal written reprimand in my personnel file on Thursday proved that. I have been asking myself the question every day, "Can I learn to just get along with this job?", Thursday showed me, "NO"!

#2. Sara has talked me into a new way of eating, I have been scared to death of it, but today was my first day. My weight is a battle that I have been fighting for about 20 years....Once Hope asked me when I would accept and admit that what I was doing to resolve me weight issue wasn't working. Well today I admit it, I still sit here at most likely 280, nearly the same weight as before my surgery, and I am still 'using' food for comfort and still eating to de-stress or feel better. I have a quote on my phone that reminds me that "If hunger isn't the problem, eating is NOT the solution".  

'Eat to Live' by Joel Fuhram

Many times I just blow right through that saying and eat my guts out. It is time to reacquaint my body to what food is actually for............

.............Hence Day 1.

Breakfast was wonderful, a 
huge container of chunked oranges, strawberries and melon, there was a little container of salted sunflower seeds to sprinkle on the fruit, which I did after I had eaten about half of it. I am way full..... It was beautiful to look at and very yummy, very pleasing....I couldn't have done this on my own.... Sara and Winter worked for about 4 hours yesterday shopping, chunking, dividing and making meals for all of us.....here is how they made my breakfast and lunch....
 

so well....meal one, day one...


Here is a picture of my lunch!

This will be meal 2 day 1....


I am a little frightened about making such a radical change, I am frighted about failing and not being able to stick with this plant based diet for 6 weeks.....
I am excited to deox my body and do good things for myself, I am excited at the prospect of finally finding a way to eat and live and not be 280 pounds....


I am excited that my 2 daughters love me enough to do this for me.....if between my emotional upheaval over my life and job I had to make all of this happen, I can tell you that it wouldn't.....and I would still be stuck trying to make something happen for myself the easy way....