Day 3.....after an evening meltdown....

Day 3....

My son had a friend spending the night last night and they requested pizza for dinner....now in a perfect world I would have whipped up some scintillating style of plant based pizza that rivaled Little Caesar's in perfection...but no can do....maybe Sara could have worked it out....but I couldn't.

...having Little Caesar's ham and pineapple pizza in the house caused Winter and I to have one huge meltdown, she was near tears and I hid in the bathroom.....but I didn't have any pizza....instead I was introspective on why I was so upset....

I realized that whole 'food-is-a-pacifier' thing was happening again and I just stayed away from the pizza...

Now as I am almost done with Day 3.....

I have a lot to think about...

...remember that heartburn? Gone... still haven't had even a hint of heartburn....remember please, that I dealt with nearly daily heartburn for years and years.... 

Another thing...I have these little water balloon rings around my ankles....well...I did...I have watched these puffy rings get smaller and smaller the last 3 days...

3 days! In just 3 DAYS, I have seen astounding changes in my physical body....the fact that my heartburn has not made a presence is just WOW!....

For today's breakfast we had melons, strawberries and my fave sunflower seeds... it is so fascinating to me that I can love something for breakfast so much! I am so used to egg, ham n cheese style sandwich's for breakfast...just look at the difference!

Lunch was pizza, not Little Caesar's mind you, but a beautiful rendition with a whole wheat tortilla, tomato paste, mushrooms, broccoli and non-dairy cheese. Included was a salad with romaine, mandarin oranges, onion, sunflower seeds and walnuts.....topped by a blueberry dressing, it was very tasty! REALLY!!!

Dinner was  lasagna with long zucchini slices instead of noodles, tofu instead of cheese....believe me when I say that I could have eaten a pan full, and you know what, since it is plant based, I could have, but instead I sit here nicely full and content.

As I end this day, I actually have hope that this is a way to change my life and health for the better, this just might actually work for me.....

I am excited.....because doing what I have been doing was not taking me to a place of health.....at 51 years old, 275 pounds, I was probably taking years off my life everyday.....and that is something to really really ponder.....

Day 2.....

I am sure that the overwhelming question is???? Am I hungry?

The answer would be NO! I am stuffed with broccoli, romaine, fruit, mushrooms, etc. This type of hunger is physical hunger and I am NOT experiencing physical hunger.

The answer is also YES! I am hungry for chocolate, Pepsi, Taco Bell, etc. This kind of hunger is called 'mouth-hunger' and I am experiencing it! Not a lot, but enough to give me concern.

The food is still tasty, mostly, though I had a hard time with nothing on my romaine salad but lemon juice.

An interesting note: I have not experienced any heartburn what so ever with this eating plan! This is really monumental as I have experienced heartburn nearly everyday of my life for the past 3-4 years.

Breakfast consisted of blueberries, bananas, walnuts and sunflower seeds with oatmeal, not cooked with water, but real live oatmeal flakes sprinkled over the top. It was tasty but I could not finish it. (too much)

Lunch was baggies of raw carrots, celery & broccoli (no ranch!!! bleh! I need a reality check here) and a big bowl of cooked broccoli with ginger sauce (yummy)

I have no idea what dinner holds for me, but I am sure it will be another adventure!

Winter and I were just talking about how our psyches are struggling with the lack of comfort foods....food has become our pacifiers....and our bodies show the dependence on such.

I read today on 'tiny buddha', "Take a look around and ask yourself: Is this what I want, for my present or my future? And if not: What can I do today to help discover and create my yes?"

I want to be healthy, I want to snowboard this year, I want to run, play and have stamina and energy.  I want to have the energy to ride bikes with my kids...

At this point in my life, as a 275 pound 52 yr old woman, my physical future is in doubt....

soooo as I look at my paci's...and as I learn to leave them alone and 

as I learn to see food as fuel for the body and not a solution to a problem that doesn't involve hunger...

I am changing what I want for my life....

and if I can help you understand food and how it pacifies us...and how maybe that is NOT the answer....

then that is pretty damn cool too!